Sweet Noodle Princess || PC

Name:Pansykit, Pansypaw, Pansydew
Human AU name: Pansy Brennan 
Nicknames: n/a
Age: 32 Moons

Clan information

Current Clan : Pondclan
Current Rank : Warrior
Past Rank(s): Kit, loner, Apprentice

Mentor:
                 Past: Ashtail
                 Current: --
Apprentice:
                Past: Pebblestream
                Current:-- 

Identification

Breed: American shorthair
Fur: sleek
Build: Thin and rather small

Relationship Information

Sexuality: Demisexual, homoromantic
                  X Quick Fling 
                   ✓Lasting relationship
                  X Unsure

Activity: Junipermoon

                 Past/ Regrets
                 Currently associated with
                 Past / Doesn’t regret
                 Past


Personality

||(traits)||(traits)||(traits)||

||Kind||
Pansydew would never do anything to intentionally hurt another cat, especially if she had even the thinnest relationship with them. She adores to help others even though she likes doing it without any recognition, or silently if possible. She tries as hard as she possibly can to make others feel secure and usually knows the right thing to say to help others calm themselves down. 

||Motherly||
Much like with her interests, Pansy will devote herself to someone if she feels like they're a good cat and/or has a pure heart. She tends to like more sarcastic cats, as they seem to have warmer hearts. She's always mothering over others, making sure that they take care of themselves before anything else. She's good at figuring out when others are upset about something and will usually go out of her way to try and fix the problem. 

||Supportive||
Pansydew stands firmly by her loved ones no matter what, even if it makes things harder. She's always there, doing her best to make sure that they know that she's by them. She's always making sure that her kits know she's interested in their hobbies and pass-times and tries to be there for every happy or interesting moment. She doesn't blindly support her siblings, and will tell them when she thinks they are wrong. Still, she sees this as supporting them. 

||Studious||
if she cares about something, pansy will do her best to be the best at that subject. because she adores finding out about living animals, she can list several things regarding bird behavior and how they feed their young or what they make nests out of. She sometimes gets lost in her thoughts, to the point where she zones out for hours simply observing. 

|| Thoughtful ||
Pansydew thinks extensively about almost everything that she does, making sure that she makes the right decision. Unfortunately, she tends to think herself into circles, or make herself too tied up in her own thoughts to actually go and do the thing that she's been thinking about. She usually sticks with her decision, but it could take hours or days for her to come to a conclusion about something simple. 

||Hesitant||
Because she has to think everything through over and over, Pansydew immediately shirks from immediate decision making. She usually panics when she's forced to make a fast choice, especially when it's something important and tensions are high. She shirks back as opposed to jumping forward when the pressure becomes too much.

||Shy||
Pansydew is an introvert, shying away from interactions with other cats unless they are close with her. She tends to want to avoid other cats, though it's from a comfort perspective. She does like to talk to others and opens up when someone can crack her shell open. She likes talking, but is equally as comfortable sitting in silence with another and not having to think about what sort of thing they ought to talk about next. 

||Secretive||
Pansydew has secrets so deep that she likes to keep them tucked away. She hardly ever speaks about anything deeper than the shallow ends of the lake unless she feels like she needs to or unless it will help another cat get through something. She keeps secrets well, as she considers them to be the secret-keeper's job to let whoever entrusted them with the secret let it be public or known on their own terms. The only time that Pansydew would reveal a secret was if someone would die or be seriously injured otherwise. 

||Emotionally Unstable||
Even though Pansydew likes to help others through things, she herself is rather emotionally messed-up. She was abused by her father in her early life, making her emotionally unable to handle other things. If something upsets her, she might be found in a corner somewhere, crying over it and thinking it over far too much. 

Family

Mother: Nightswallow
Father: Silentfall
Siblings: (adopted kind of sort of might as well be littermates) Jaggedstep, Raggedstorm
Mate: Junipermoon
Kits: Duskkit, Shiningkit, Plushkit, Tulipkit, Wanderkit, Frostednight, Pebblestream

History
Pansykit was born to Nightswallow and Silentfall, two warriors of a great clan. She was born siblingless, the only kit of a young queen, and for the first two months of her life, things were fine. She was a small, bumbling kit when things started to change. Her father sulked more, his staring at her becoming more and more intense. More hungry. Nightswallow started blocking him from entering the nursery, and she never let Pansykit stray from it. Silentfall had, from an early age, been a strange tom, but because many knew nothing of mental illnesses, he went untreated and unbound. In a fit one day, he had a loud argument with Nightswallow outside the nursery- one that devolved into hissing and spitting and, eventually, violence. Pansydew heard a strangled cry from where she sat huddled in the corner of the den before her father stormed in, grabbed her by the back of the nest and barreled through the back of the nursery, leaving a trail of broken twigs and bloody footprints in his wake. Nightswallow lay still in front of the nursery in a slowly growing pool of her own blood. 

Silentfall took care of Pansykit, stashing her in tree roots while he hunted. Much of her kithood was spent hiding and sneaking from place, more often than not to evade her father as well as other cats. Though she had no hatred for him and his violent, angry ways, she did fear him. Her bright personality quickly became withdrawn. Every sound made her start and every unexpected movement made her skitter for cover. She did not learn to hunt- indeed, her father insisted that she not learn, and that it was too dangerous for her to try. Still, her need for something besides grubs and grass while her father was out pushed her to explore. She started learning little things about her surrounding and, slowly, her distrust of the environment waned slightly. 

When she was seven moons of age, Pansykit and her father were attacked and cornered on the shore of a great river by a great striped creature with large blunt claws. The creature chased her, running her right into the water. Almost on instinct, Pansykit took to the water, driving herself into it. Her mother too had been a powerful swimmer, and her clan had been based around a great body of water. However, she was a noodle cat even then and didn't have the strength to get herself back to shore. And so she was whisked off into the distance, far far from her father as he ran to escape the badger. Resigning herself to her fate, Pansykit rode to river, slowly trying to work her way back to the shore before she lost all her strength and gave up. The river thinned enough that she was able to drag herself to the shore, but she was far too tired to go any farther that night. She passed out in a nearby grove, completely unaware that she was far too close to clan territory. 

When Pansykit awoke, she tried to find herself something to eat, hopelessness eating at her. Her father, in his own twisted way, had taken care of her, and she had no idea how to hunt or fight. Shivering and alone, Pansykit wandered into clan territory without a second thought to the scent markers that lined the ground. She had tried and failed to hunt a mouse three times before she was found by a warrior of the clan named Ashtail. To her surprise, he did not attack her, but told her that there was a place she could go since she was alone. The leader of the clan accepted her, much to her surprise and, without her really ever getting a say in it, Pansykit was named Pansypaw. 

The first few weeks in the clan were hard, and nearly every day she told herself that she would leave- after all, this place wasn't for her. But the more cats she interacted with, the more the clan felt.... like home. She befriended three other apprentices that ended up becoming her family- Juniperpaw, Raggedpaw and Jaggedpaw. Raggedpaw and Jaggedpaw had joined the clan just after herself- days, even, so they shared that strange unfamiliarity of it all with one another. The apprentice months flew past and slowly Pansypaw started to be okay. She and the toms declared themselves to be siblings, taking care of one another, and Pansypaw ended up confessing her crush on Juniperpaw and helping the other through some emotional trauma. Juniperpaw was named Junipermoon not long after, and they promised each other that as soon as Pansypaw was given her warrior name they would declare their mateship official. 

Pansypaw was named Pansydew, then, and she couldn't have been more proud of herself. She and Junipermoon made their mateship official and they were both even given apprentices. Pebblepaw, Pansydew's apprentice, shortly became absolutely adored by her and, after delving a bit into it all and finding out that her mother was dead and her father had abandoned her and her siblings at a very early age, she insisted on adopting her and her brother, as they were the ones who seemed to need it the most. They became close through friendly training sessions and, though Frostedpaw seemed hesitant for her to take over like she wanted to, she tried to make sure that he felt included, though he certainly seemed to bond more with Junipermoon than herself. 

Moons passed softly and Pebblepaw was named Pebblestream- and Pansydew couldn't have been prouder. Unfortunately, the good news was marred. A great fire broke out in the dry heat of greenleaf, setting shrubs and small scrappy trees up in flames. The clan was consumed in a great fire, and there was chaos. Cats were consumed- a great many that Pansydew loved. Ashtail, Frostednight, Raccoonmask and many others- even their leader- were lost forever to the blaze to join Starclan. The remaining cats gathered up under the direction of Dimlight, a warrior that had previously terrified Pansydew, to organize them and get them away from it all. The journey was hard and lasted for moons, and as they traveled, stray cats came and hitched onto the train and joined their ragged group, and, along the way, Pansydew and Junipermoon rather forcibly took custody of a litter of kits that had been stuck with horribly bigoted parents. They came to the new land not too long after and settled down after what felt like an eternity of walking. 
 

Extra

Power: 3/5
Speed: 4/5
Grace: 5/5
Endurance: 2/5
Accuracy: 5/5 
Tactics: 4/5
TOTAL: 23/ 30

Likes:
watching
listening
taking walks
water
hunting

Dislikes:
the dark
lightning bugs
Talking about the past

Relationships

 ll No opinion / neutral
 ll Acquaintance 

 ll Friend
 ll Good Friend
 ll Best Friend

 ll Ex-Crush
 ll Pity For
 ll Ex-Mate

 ll Distant relative
 ll Relative
 ll Close Relative

 ll Small Crush
 ll Average Crush

 ll Major Crush

 ll Suspicious
 ll Questionable
 ll Interested in / Curious about

 ll Lust
 ll Love
 ll Mated with

 ll Respect
 ll Fear
 ll Terrified of

 ll Slight Hatred
 ll Wants Dead / loath
 ll Raped l Sexually Offended / Abused by

 ll Family by choice
|| Mentor

|| Lust

 || Physical attraction

 || Sexual lust

|| Mate

 || Dead

PONDCLAN-
Silentfall- - My father, I suppose. But not really. I don't, uhm, quite think of him as family anymore. 

Nightswallow- - My mother. I know so little about her.... but I suppose that's alright. Someday I'll meet her in Starclan. We, uhm, have a lot of stuff to catch up on!!

Ashtail- - he took me in and made me a home... I will miss him with all my heart for as long as I live.

Raggedstorm- - He's a loud, reckless goober. He and Jagged are the best brothers I could have asked for. 

Jaggedstep-  - He's always so quiet- he and I are pretty similar, I think. I really couldn't ask for more. 

Fogsoul- - She better treat Raggedstorm right. I'm, uhm, I mean I'm sure she will, but she better!! Ahh that sounded kind of dumb, huh? Well... after all he's been through, uhm, I hope she can bring him, uhm, lots of happiness. 

Junipermoon- - I love her so much... uhm, she's got a really special place in my heart, and I hope hat we have a long, long life together. 

Pebblestream- - I will, uhm, take care of her until my last breath, even though she's a warrior now. I'm so proud, uhm, of her. 

Frostednight- - I told him I would protect him, but I failed... I'm so sorry....

Dimstar- - As, uh, intimidating as he may be, he's a good cat. With, uhm, a bit of a temper. 

Stormpaw- - she's a delight! I, uhm, hope she doesn't get into too much trouble. 

Duskkit- - My brave little boy. He's, uhm, not like many other cats, but that's alright. I love him all the same. 

Shiningkit-  - My little shining star! They've got, uhm, just the biggest heart. 

Plushkit-  - Oh, I wish I could do more to help bring her out of her shell! She's so bright!

Tulipkit-  - She's unsure of me, and I can, uhm, understand why. Still, I love her, and I hope that, uhm, I can make her understand that. 

Wanderkit-  - They're so adventurous! I have to keep a close eye on them to make sure they don't wander too far, but I hope that doesn't, uhm, curb their thirst for the new and exciting!!